A trip across the northern US (2024)

 In June 2024, I got a chance to attend the CVPR conference in Seattle. It was a week long conference scheduled from June 17 to June 21. It was my third trip to the US, but the first one out of California. My first two trips were mostly spent in the tech bubble of the bay area.

As is customary, I extended my trip to a month. I decided to see more of the "real" USA while also visiting my friends.

June 16 - June 22

Attended CVPR in Seattle. The conference was an intense, invigorating experience which rekindled my love for research. This is the best thing I love about the US - it is ingrained in their (academic?) culture to push the envelope, especially in areas of science and tech. The city itself is quite pretty with big and small bodies of water interspersed across the urban landscape. The state of Washington has strong outdoorsy vibes with three national parks in vicinity of Seattle and tons of countryside to explore.

June 22 - took an overnight flight from Seattle to New York City

June 23-24 - met with D and spent two days in NYC. I stayed with D in Harlem - a neighborhood with a lot of history and good food. Also got to meet some of D's friends.

June 25 - quick meetup with A in Connecticut.

June 26 - took a train from Stamford to Boston. Spent a couple of hours in Massachusetts, esp the MIT Press bookstore before being picked up by S. V arrived later that evening in the wake of an incoming storm and shifty flight schedules.

June 27 - June 28

Spent two nights camping in Acadia National Park with S and V. It is a five hour drive from Boston which goes through the states of New Hampshire and Maine. I was surprised by how well maintained the campground was. Having done my fair share of hikes in Taiwan, I had begun to associate camping with hiking over a rugged terrain while surviving on bare basics in a remote land far away from any civilization. This was not the case here - we always had access to a car and the Bar Harbor town had everything we could possibly need. The place is gorgeous and offers sweeping views of the ocean and pockets of islands dispersed throughout the area. On the second night, the sky opened up to a rare uninterrupted view of the Milky Way.

June 29 - drove back to Boston and met up with G and M. 

July 30 - got to explore a little bit of the downtown but being an early Sunday morning, there wasn't much to see. Had lunch with S and M and then headed to the airport to take a flight to Chicago.

July 30 - July 2

I met up with S. This was the third week of the trip and I had started to work (remotely). This meant spending more time in cafes in downtown Chicago. Also met up with V again and checked out the Art Institute of Chicago and the Harold Washington library with him. S also took me to the north avenue beach. I went there again the next morning and took a long detour back to S's place via Lincoln park and the surrounding neighborhood. 

We also tried out the gummies and for the first time I experienced a somewhat positive effect. I would describe it as having the same feeling of heightened senses as when you wake up after a long and deep nap. Add to it a warped sense of time and you have what one would call a high.

Downtown Chicago has an energy characteristic of Asian cities with a relatively well connected public transport while still maintaining the luxury of space typical of the US with an affordable cost of living. In other words, it is a pretty good balance of different elements which makes it quite likable. 

July 3 - July 8

Took a Greyhound bus from Chicago to St Paul with a pit stop at Milwaukee. This route is quite scenic and offers fleeting views of rustic midwest America. R picked me up at St Paul bus station. We took a quick stop in St Paul's downtown before driving to R's place. St Paul's downtown is pleasantly active and charming in stark contrast to NYC or downtown areas of Chicago and Seattle. 

I was seeing R after 15 years and we had a lot to catch up on. We also got to see the July 4th fireworks in Minneapolis city. I also learnt that the relatively less talked about twin cities of St-Paul and Minneapolis are actually headquarters to General Mills, the Pillsbury company, Allianz Life, Target, Best Buy, 3M and Polaroid Corp. 

I took a flight from St Paul airport back to Seattle. The staff at the airport was the friendliest I have seen in the US. 

July 8 - July 16

I had booked an Airbnb close to Northgate. I lost a pouch with my chargers at the airport and almost ran out of battery by the time I checked in to my Airbnb (which was way past midnight and there was no recourse). I was a little weary of constantly moving, packing and unpacking stuff. I spent the last nine days in Seattle winding down. My favorite part of the city was South Lake where I took long walks and checked out the coffee shops. 

Here, I met up with K with his wife and friend. He was on a trip to the northwest part of the continent starting from Vancouver and ending in Portland. He drove us to the Mt Rainier National Park which is absolutely stunning!

It was only a couple of weeks after returning to Taipei did I realize that A was also in Seattle during this time.  

July 16 - took a flight back home to Taipei.

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The year 2020

This is how this year began:

I spent the new year camping in a wild hot spring (梵梵溫泉) near Yilan with a couple of friends. 

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To the ten-years-ago self

 [End of October 2010] Your six week stay in London just came to an end. You are on your way back to Singapore and you are not looking forward to it. However you feel quite fortunate to start your career with a cushy job in a cushy place. 

- Little do you know that you will be overcome by lassitude in just a couple of years. A growing dissatisfaction with work will force you to consider alternate career paths. The idea of an MBA or continuing in banking sector sounds safe but rather unappealing. You will apply for a grad program but fail. A growing sense of uncertainty will overwhelm you, and eventually haunt you for most of your 20s. You will waste the next 5-6 years switching career paths and starting from scratch every time.

+ You have started running longer, faster and more often. For the next five years you will run a lot and write about it a lot. After about four years you will hit your (running) peak and achieve some of your running goals. After turning thirty you will start focusing on bodyweight workout and at around thirty two hit the peak of your fitness.

 + The monotony of living in Singapore will force you to travel to nearby countries in South East Asia. It will rekindle your love of mountains and hiking. Most of your happy memories for the time being are going to be associated with it. This is going to play a significant factor in deciding where you want to base yourself next.

- You have gained reputation as a loner. You enjoy spending time alone but at times suffer from bouts of loneliness. Over the next ten years these occasional bouts are going to devolve into an overbearing feeling of loneliness which will torment you constantly. Currently a long run or an intense workout makes you feel better but none of it is going to work out in future. Nothing else will work either - dating, relationships, increased social participation. You will try many a thing to get rid of it but will eventually submit to it and start to learn how to live with it. 

+ Some people you will meet just for a few hours or days will leave strong impressions on you. Especially meeting S and K in Seoul. When you meet them in Seoul, you will have absolutely no idea that you will meet K again on the other side of the world after a couple of years. 

+ Most of your pleasant memories are currently associated with places or things, not people. This is going to change. You will meet some beautiful souls along the way who will bring much needed fondness in your life and memories.

Personal life

- There are two kinds of feelings you are largely unaware of. But they will become an inextricable part of your life. Feelings of regret and loss. 

- You have a tenuous relationship with your parents but nothing of major concern. You harbor an optimism that one day the lingering issues will disappear and you will be able create a strong bond with them. However over the next ten years this relationship is going to degrade in the way you feared but did not expect. It is going to take a severe toll on your mental health. But you will also strengthen certain aspects of your bonds with family in ways you never expected. In the end things will more or less fall in place.

Overall

+ You will quit this job after about three years under and set out traveling. Little can you image you will end up in a place so vastly different and suited to almost everything you would want. You will invest significant time and money in an endeavor of learning a new language. At this point your life will veer to a completely different direction and you will more or less find yourself settled in terms of location and career path.

Buckle up!

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So long 2019

A summary of highlights of 2019 reads pretty optimistic on surface level: this year I did my first muscle-up, set up the website I'd been planning for a while and experimented with organizing meet-ups.

The year actually began on a rather low note and the first few months have few scattered moments worth remembering. It came with a realization of a possibly lifelong struggle to deal with loss and loneliness.

Many months ago I wrote this note which now, ironically, carries a therapeutic overtone:

How does one shake off this ominous feeling of presentiment of an impending doom? The feeling of living under a ramshackle roof where every now and then you can hear another slip or a crack. Every instance stirs up a vision that one day the roof will collapse on you. 

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However, the year also marked some amazing multiple-day hikes in Taiwan, in particular the one to Qilai East Ridge. It is one of the most stunning hikes I have done. And watching Sambar deer in the wild was an amazing experience.

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It also marked a significant jump in my fitness level. Doing a muscle up had been on my list for years and I felt elated the first time I did it. A minor shoulder dislocation hampered the progress but while I am still nursing the injured shoulder, I still try it once in a while to keep the muscle memory intact. 

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While rewarding physically, I miserably failed on the emotional front. Latent feelings of disconnect with people and an inability to forge strong relationships resurfaced. As much as I am aware of their falsehood, I have pretty much resigned to an occasional backsliding into negative emotions.

I can only hope that the next year brings a little more joy. So long 2019.

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So long 2018

Soon after I moved in to my current apartment about eighteen months ago, I scribbled a note and stuck it on a wall:

"It's all in your head."

It was supposed to serve as a reminder to not be affected by occasional bouts of feeling dispirited. I am not sure how much it helped me. But it sure invited some puzzled looks from people I hosted at my place. That is the only personal thing that decorates my room.

--x--x--

For a large part of my life, I found recourse in two things: running and writing. At some of my lowest points in life, I found redemption in moments of breathlessness after an intense run. I have written (quite a bit) about it. There is something soothing about expressing in words an impersonal yet intimate emotion that running brought me.

Well, I don't run that much now. And I don't write anymore. I think I resorted to writing in moments of loneliness. It slightly scares me as I go through some of the old posts here. In these posts, there always lingers a disconnect with people which I never thought I would be able to get rid of. This is what I wrote just a few years ago:

"I notice when people are down or sad or scared, they think of other people. They ring someone up. They talk. When I am down or sad or scared, I think of things to do. I go running. I make myself so tired that I lose the ability to think." (ref: Fidding with Endorphin Levels)

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"People thought about other people. People thought about things. I just thought about things in my life."

I am (pleasantly) surprised and glad how I have been able to intersect my lives with those of others.

--x--x--

I look around at the walls in my room. Except for the ominous note mentioned above, there is no trace of anything else personal. People decorate their rooms to cherish good memories. I have always tried not to get haunted by my memories.

"My not-so-recent history is largely devoid of interactive elements. There lies no mention of social validation, memorable moments, intimate confessions, pep talks or adolescent curiosity. All I remember is the intensity of things. The last thing I wanted to think about was myself." (ref: Of Winters and Mediocrity)

Ever since I wrote these thoughts down years ago, things have changed positively. 

I have always tried to do everything I did to the extreme. I feel grateful for where this habit landed me today.

I feel grateful that running is no more a purgation of emotions but a celebration of life.

I feel super grateful for some beautiful people who entered into my life. I thank them for the memories which I can cherish and not try to forget.

Wherever I move next, I will probably have sweeter things to stick around on the walls than this:

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Notes on South Korea and Hong Kong [Series: Incomplete blogs]

Days in South Korea

A mention of Korea brings to mind days of pure sunshine, breezy nights and consistently cool weather. It also brings to mind the circuitous lanes creeping up and down the hills in Itaewon, jimjilbangs and luxuriating coffee shops.

I have mostly sweet memories of it; they only get fonder with time. Sour experiences are selectively filtered out or watered down while pleasant memories get amplified. They call it rosy retrospection. But there's something to it - something unsettling, something too amorphous to be made sense of. But I will try.

HK

First impressoins: HK is very crowded - it's streets are packed with people. The subway has very long platforms and is always full of people. The magnitude of hustle and bustle here is bewildering. Buildings have old, dull and torn out facades. Apartments have tiny rooms and tinier bathrooms. It's a claustrophobic's nightmare. On top of it, accommodation is expensive as hell which is a backpacker's nightmare.

Wan Chai: The first place I visited in HK was Causeway Bay in Wan Chai on a Sunday evening. The hyperactivity of the place was overwhelming. It's streets ran in all directions without following any pattern. Crammed between these tortuous alleys were buildings donning an age old look; a plethora of neon sign boards jutting out from the walls facing these streets. No matter how dampening the exteriors were, most shops inside had swanky interiors and sold upscale items. I spent only one night here since accommodation here was more expensive than other touristy havens like Kowloon.

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The Streets of Taipei [Series: Incomplete blogs]

There was nothing peculiar about that evening when the rain came lashing down. I wouldn't have gone out but I had to. Grudgingly I left home; I walked along the edge of the street barely keeping myself under the shelter of pattering tin sheets.

I am reminded of a random night in Causeway Bay, Hong Kong when I was cornered by a sudden downpour. I vividly remember the almost instant bloom of umbrellas followed by hurried footfalls. It was a weird place - I could never understand how their individuality interfaced with the society. It was loud, it was claustrophobic; yet nobody seemed to have any willingness to talk to each other.

I was in the MRT now, bound to 劍南路站。When it rained, the streets of Taipei looked like stills from a Wong-kar Wai movie. Colorful neon boards jutting out from lackluster buildings reflected off wet roads. Smoke wafting from roadside food-stalls dissolved into the droplets of water dripping off tin sheets. The road was covered with a series of reflections of headlights and streetlamps.

There was a sweet charm in getting lost in the narrow tortuous alleys of this city. The city had pockets of old neighborhoods interlaced with narrow lanes and flanked by dull facades of 公寓. These neighborhoods were the best part of this city. Every morning a swarm of chirpy little breakfast places took birth in random parts of all streets. These breakfast stalls would disappear gradually before afternoon or sometimes evening.

I reached 劍南路站。It had stopped raining and the sky had cleared up. The air smelled of earthy freshness. This place was teeming with swanky malls and upscale showrooms. A mountain guarded the view on the other side. I handed over some stuff to my friend. My next destination was 輔大 located in extreme west part of New Taipei City. I had recently started going to a bouldering gym there.

The neighborhood around 輔大 was pretty much dead in nature. Once you veered away from the highway, all noises disappeared into the stillness that reigned the place. There were no 公寓s, no cozy stalls or night markets. It was a string of large warehouses and small factories - the kind of place that seemed to lack charm.

There were unremarkable turns with badly marked addresses between badly lit, poorly managed warehouses. I took one of those turns, dodging a small pool of water and walked toward a big building with tin walls. The wonky walls of its interior were speckled with motleyed blocks. That was my place.

It was just this little place in middle of nowhere that made me love the entire neighborhood. It was as if the charm of this place was intensified by the lack of it outside. I made numerous trips to this place. I got hooked to it.

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Cycling around Taiwan - 台灣環島 [Series: Incomplete blogs]

At about eight in the morning I left Taipei with a small backpack on my bike. Thirty minutes later, still in Taipei, I bought a helmet and a raincoat. That's all I needed for the trip. Then I cycled all the way out of the city.

I felt the freedom to move at my own pace and stop at my own will, the lightness of being in motion and the dopamine kicks of physical exertion. It was a very liberating feeling living an unrestrained yet minimalist way of life. I set out with keen senses and constant excitement.

That's how actually day one began. It however ended with anti-climactic feelings of physical exhaustion and slight disappointment with a lack of scenery as I was greeted with a string of dull townships and mundane human settlements. I rested in Miaoli (苗栗), a town located in the foothills of western Taiwan.

Sanyi (三義) is one of those towns where you can spend a lot of time doing nothing on a sunny day. The charm in its simplicity had a soothing effect. The old railway station shone proudly in the sunshine. There was just a lady with her kid waiting inside. This was in sharp contrast to the unending row of concrete erections that put me down on day one.

The best part of day one was a small detour along the western coast near Hsinzhu (新竹). I spotted windmills swirling elegantly by the sea against the backdrop of a setting sun. I watched the crisply defined silhouettes of their blades slashing the cerise rays of the sun. Their long shadows spanned the entire width of the highway.

A long, uninterrupted downslope about 5 km in length gets you to Houli (后里) from Sanyi. Floating effortlessly for such a long distance became one of the highlights of this trip.

I slept over in Taichong (台中) and Tainan (台南) - two lovely cities where I found some kind people to host me. The next day I biked to Xinzuoying (新左營) and took a train ride to Taitung (台東). A shitty weather greeted me and after a futile attempt to sleep in an open shelter, I resumed biking again.

The east coast of Taiwan is breath-taking. Every few kilometers there's a sheltered spot which offers stunning views of the ocean and the mountains. 

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Evolution of Indian Cities

Indian cities are not walkable. And the way they are evolving does not accommodate a thought for public spaces. The rise of megacities is driven by commercial aspirations allowing a lifestyle dedicated to indoor spaces only. Any activity assumes shape of a commercial business enclosed within concrete walls. This is specially true in case of fitness.

Walking is an activity I have heavily relied upon regardless of where I lived. 

My lifestyle interlaced with cityscapes in a way that walking and running became the most common ways for me to explore neighborhoods. During my time roving in Asia, I kept myself fit with street workouts in public spaces and running through city alleys. 

I used to work on my laptop in public parks and street side cafes. For me, the concept of ‘home’ or indoor space got reduced to a place where I could sleep overnight and wash up before leaving the next morning.

When I set out cycling the island of Taiwan in 2014, I spent almost all my time outdoors - cycling in the day and sleeping in the night in school or temple foyers, or just in the middle of nowhere. I have the most delightful and profound memories of that time. I had become an extremely outdoorsy person, to an extent that I began to feel low-spirited when at home. During my time in Taipei, I’d go hiking almost every weekend. That was an ideal lifestyle for me - it had richness of challenging myself physically and mentally, and balance of spending time in urban spaces and nature.

All these tiny interactions that involved physical movement in city spaces came down crashing when I began to live and work in Mumbai. And then Bangalore. Any venture into outdoor space would be met by overwhelming traffic. It was surprising to see so few people walk in cities where vehicular mobility was so crippled. 

Fitness, something that I have always associated with outdoors, became associated with indoor spaces (gyms and studios).

The proportion between space to sleep and space to move should stay more or less constant as a society evolves. This proportion is witnessing a wonky rise in arguably every city in India. What makes the matter worse is our cultural propensity to adapt to any deteriorating situation rather than step up and do something about it. This has given rise to a lot of very challenging problems to be solved, the most obvious being transport.

Public transport is in a shambles. The most common alternative to it is a car - something that occupies much more space per individual than any public transport. It is not a sustainable solution. 

I believe the future of transport is going to be multi-modal. 

The way Indian cities are evolving, there is little scope for a multi-modal transport and almost no hope for green and efficient means like a bicycle. Every time I see new high rises being constructed for residential purposes on the fringes of large conurbations, I wonder how this new mass of people will move about in a space that already so choked.

What can be done? Unfortunately not much can be done without the participation of government. Creation of dedicated bicycle lanes, provision of bicycles for public use, better public transport or walkable cities - private sector can't do much without involvement of public sector. And that's what freaks me out.

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Portfolio

Things I’ve made:

• dCrypt,
• Geometry of Korean Characters,
• MyYu (My語),
• YehChina Gameroom,
• Grid Space
• Game Templates

Things I have written:

• Creative thinking with Chinese characters
• Geometry of Korean Characters
• Blog

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Game Plan for a Streamlined Society

Objective

To contribute towards a leaner, interactive and healthier society.

Portfolio

Things I’ve made:

• dCrypt,
• Geometry of Korean Characters,
• MyYu (My語),
• YehChina Gameroom,
• Grid Space
• Game Templates

Written:

• Creative thinking with Chinese characters
• Geometry of Korean Characters
• Blog

Approaches

a) Facilitate better learning: 

• Motivating by use of Cognitive Dissonance using games as media. 
• Things I've made to that effect: dCrypt, YehChina Gameroom, Game Templates
• Adding emotion to learning by using components of design and story-telling. 
• Things I've made to that effect: Geometry of Korean Characters, Creative Thinking with Chinese Characters
• Enabling people to apply their skills in a broader spectrum. For instance, I made an application that introduces some grammatical errors in any piece of English text and the user has to rectify them. 
• Things I've made to that effect: [Space for MyYu]

b) Create a leaner urban landscape

By a leaner urban landscape, I mean structuring a society that makes the most efficient utilization of available resources, and minimizes redundancy of physical commodities and carbon footprint.

• Resource Sharing and Downsizing One’s Belongings: People sharing their living spaces and vehicles in a step towards a society where maximum use is made of available resources without the onus of owning them. In Taiwan, open spaces belonging to schools and universities are open to public.
• Garbage Reduction by Increased Usage of Reusable Products: I see paper/plastic cups discarded everyday. Usage of disposable wooden chopsticks is a norm here. I don’t understand why reusable straws aren’t a commonplace phenomenon. I believe Industrial Design and Product Design are heavily underused and have a tremendous scope. 
• Harvesting Collective Intelligence: I believe that ‘the more you know, the less you need’. I can make better decisions if I am aware of what the people around me do, possess and are willing to share with others. If I know what tools and commodities are available at my disposal in a certain neighborhood, I can make better use of (shared) resources. 

c) Faster and Cheaper Modes of Movement

From Transportation & Accommodation: "I have covered long distances walking and cycling. Walking turned out to be massively inefficient, dull and time-consuming. Running is better option for distances less than fifty kilometers but its hard to run even with a small luggage. Last year I cycled around the island covering most of its periphery."

• Design Better Luggage: Another application of Industrial Design and Product Design.

d) Exploring Art and Space

Interactions in a society are typically a reflection of personal experiences whereas works of art can transcend personal experiences.  

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HK 2016 | My Tribe | Estrangement

In my maiden trip to HK this year, I happened to experience a more local, and comfortable, side of HK. During earlier trips, HK had been an off-putting experience due to a combination of bad weather, cold people and claustrophobic cityscape. I stayed with a close friend of mine and, on my last day there, met a couple of other good friends with whom I share some good memories of my time in Singapore. There were either long discussions of common friends or passing references to people I barely knew.

These were the people of my tribe - people with similar backgrounds who went on to do further studies and were comfortably settled in their newfound career paths. I forknew a lingering feeling of estrangement as we gathered. Their social fabric was mostly colored with their workplace experiences and their actions leading to a certainty of future. I had little to contribute. I have been trying to dispel the clouds of uncertainty as I grapple with an unprecedented financial crunch. As I have mentioned earlier, the gutsiness to embrace uncertainty has more or less gone (ref: Priorities Backslide). 

Richness of a lifestyle lies not just in soaking in new experiences, but also in using them to create something that reduces disorder (ref: Thinking Dangerously). 

I have done well with the former part but have been struggling with the latter part. 

Creating is much more complex than learning. While learning is an individual experience, creation is typically an outcome of a concerted effort of many.

While in HK, it was for the first time that I spent some time thinking about the amount of planning that must have gone while building this city. It’s intricate network of roads settles harmoniously in little gaps between towering buildings. I’ve never seen a traffic jam here. There’s lots of energy in certain neighborhoods. But it also smacks of an unwelcoming alienation. I still don’t understand the people here, and probably never will. 

I miss certain aspects of my friendships I seem to have lost over the time. I almost never share my experiences of an itinerant lifestyle with anyone. An ever thickening and ever softening financial cushion seems to be the sole driving factor for most people. I had a friend with whom I could discuss the trappings of our lifestyles. He was much more focused, intense and likeable than me. He severed all ties with some of us about a year ago. 

What I want to do in addition to what I mentioned in Priorities Backslide:

• Spend some more time in East Asia.
• Build a social construct to enable implementation of a few of my ideas.
• Earn money

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Priorities Backslide

What happened to the guiding principles in my life? 我的基本原則怎麼了？

I have been struggling with lack of funds and lack of clarity in how to resolve this problem. It has hijacked my thought process. I spend my time on silly ideas that can be monetized. I spend time polishing my programming skills so as to become employable. I no longer stay up late thinking and taking down notes; I no longer pull up those unplanned trips, spend a long time in isolated natural spots or reach out to strangers doing interesting things. I don't remember the last time I pushed myself physically to the limit [1]. I haven't climbed a mountain in more than a year (most of it due to bad weather). I work out regularly but it's nowhere as intense as what I used to do a couple of years ago [2].

我最近遭遇資金缺乏的困境了，不清楚怎麼解決這個困擾我的心靈的問題。我百花時間想可賺錢的計畫。我花時間磨練我的編程技能。好久沒有熬夜沈思，做筆記；好久沒有隨時出發，住在個幽靜大自然或是跟另類生活方式的人聯絡；好久沒有挑戰體力極限 [1]。已經一年多我沒有爬過什麼山了「主要是因為天氣太糟糕」。我最近運動可是他並沒有以前的強度[2]。

I want to 

- spend more time close to nature, 

- trim and optimize my belongings, 

- indulge in more art, and 

- explore urban spaces further

我想要
－多花時間在大自然裡
－優選我的所有物
－多沈迷於藝術和
－多探索城市空間

I want to spend time thinking about transportation systems, ways to enrich a minimalist way of life, and learn newer forms of art the joy of which can be shared with people easily [3]. Sharing happiness is in itself a happiness.

我較喜歡考慮另類交通方式，充實簡約生活，學可分享的藝術方式 [3]。畢竟分享快樂也就是一種快樂。 

I want to use my programming skills to utilize collective intelligence for a more efficient and economical lifestyle. 

But that takes time, effort and money. Money is something I don't have. I am still fighting off the urge to pick a programming job here which seems to be the easiest and worst option. Freelance projects maybe?

我想要藉由編程利用集體智慧為高校的生活方式。不過這件事需要時間與我並沒有的錢。我還是不想做個編程工作；這是最容易而最爛的計畫。自由職業呢？

I spent the last month blowing a lot of money to regain my health. I spent most of this month planning how to make myself stay in Taiwan and have a sustainable lifestyle. Other than a stronger grip on Mandarin and better programming skills, I haven't gained a lot this year. My confidence is weakening. 

The madness of living a life in extremes used to be something elemental about my personality. It seems a distant memory now.

上個月我因生病而花了不少錢。這個月我還是很努力待在台灣在找個可持續的生活方式。除了比較好的中文與比較好的編成技能，我沒有得到什麼特別的成就。極端生活的瘋狂本來是我個性的不可分的元素，目前他是一個遙遠的記憶。

[1]: I did spend two nights sleepless, more or less walking incessantly, but it was more of an upshot of an unplanned trip gone haywire. I ended up getting sick and spent a lot of money on treatment.

[2]: However, I feel I have a better control on my body and my core has never been stronger. I have almost stopped running and have been experimenting with street workout. I have got good company. I have begun to appreciate the value of static posture - an underlying element in yoga, gymnastics and martial arts. 

[3]: I consider fitness, specifically novel ways of motion, an art. But that's something the joy of which can't be shared with people around. The joy of a singer, dancer, magician or a musician performing in an open space can be shared among spectators. 

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With an Amei Family 「跟一個阿美家」

During the Chinese New Year break, 2016 I got a chance a spend a day with a family living along the east coast south of Hualien.

If you have traveled along the east coast, you know what I am talking about. There are houses scattered along the coast facing the deep blue Pacific. Not being part of a congested Taiwanese township, they occupy a liberal amount of space. The family I visited lived in one such house in the middle of nowhere. It was a single-story fronted by a large porch and a garden.  There was another garden on its lateral side. On the other side stood the house of their only neighbor.

An infectious openness pervaded the house. A delicate sense of privacy could be detected in few matters. Being CNY, almost all the family members had gathered at one place. I was handed a bike to explore the vicinity. The bike didn't have a lock. It didn't matter.

I came back around three in the afternoon. Soon I joined a group of men sitting out in the porch. They  were friendly, and had little inhibition while expressing themselves or talking to me. They'd pass around a bottle of 小米酒 and munch on nuts while talking. They were loud, they were hilarious. 

Their stories had an elemental freshness; they didn't have many contextual or cultural overtones. Their interaction wasn't delimited by social niceties or shaped by formality. It took little effort to connect to them.

As it got dark, the sea in front us disappeared behind the glow of streetlights. One could still feel the vastness of it as it dissolved cacophony of tiny human settlements into its roaring bosom. The evening and the night involved consumption of copious amounts of alcohol and food. Loud guffaws of laughter occasionally tore into the stillness of the dark. Unconcerned by statutes of an urban society, in the lap of nature, surrounded by people I didn't know a day ago, I don't remember the last time I felt so liberating.

過年時我遇到一位住在東岸的人。他邀請我來他家一起吃飯。

台灣的東岸有幾個零散的面對海的房子。他們不屬於一個擁擠的鄉鎮，而是位於開闊空間。我拜訪的那個大片房子也是這種的。在個大的前廊前面有個菜園。他一邊有另外一個菜園，一邊有唯一鄰居的家。

房子裡瀰漫著開放性。他們平凡的生活裡難以感覺到隱私的元素。因過年而家人都來聚集。我朋友給我一個腳踏車探索鄰區。那台腳踏車不能鎖起來。沒有人在乎。

我三點回來再加入坐在前廊的人。他們又熱情又直言不諱。他們一邊吃小吃，一邊從寶特瓶輪流的和小米酒。他們相當搞笑。他們講的故事有簡易性的感覺，沒有任何以文化為複雜的元素。他們的話題不是以應酬為範圍限制的。雖然我完全不了解他們的背景或是文化，我輕易的跟他們連結。

日落後海洋路燈的光芒後黑暗中消失了。你以驚濤咆哮的聲音與其他聲音的缺席中還是會感覺到海洋的出席。哪一個晚上大家都酗酒宴飲。偶爾哄笑的聲音會撕破黑暗的沉寂。那一晚上我對當時本人生活的情況完全無動於衷。在大自然的懷抱裡，跟前一天完全不認識的人中，我陶醉在剛發現的解放了。

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